New start, new life, forget the past... ^^)

After bearing the pain for 2 days, I have realized how silly I was to think of all those crazy stuffs in my mind..Hmm..well, to those out there who knew what am I talking about, please keep it silent ya? Hehe...
And to those who do not know me well, it's okay, guys..Chill...Haha..  >.<

It's a long story to begin tho...Anyway, today's story is very short..Nothing much actually...
(Honestly speaking, this is my only place to confess and express out my feelings..So you guys are lucky to know the real me...Hahaha..LOL)

So...what I wanna talk actually..? Ah yes, I received a call from a model agency..I have applied (just recently) without anyone knowing bout it (sounds cool, yea~ hehe) ...Guess what? I will be their model soon...Applemint clothes..can you imagine? lol..I'm so happy...Haha...

I'll be at Petaling Street this Saturday (9th October) for tuition purposes and....modeling.. ^^) My agent will be there too..=.=lll 

Lol...on second thought, I'm nervous...Sigh...Anyway, if you happen to see a girl with jacket and cameras flashing at her, that's me...It will be great if you guys can see me~ 

Wish me luck, everyone~

and....

thank you for everything..

Love Mandy~

Little Wing

I won't compare myself with anyone in this world. If I compare, I am only insulting myself.
 
Nobody will manufacture a lock without a key. Similarly God won't give problems without solutions.
Life laughs at you when you are unhappy. Life smiles at you when you are happy. Life SALUTES you when YOU MAKE OTHERS HAPPY.
'I will always wear a smile although I may be bleeding inside'.....

Every successful person has a painful story. Every painful story has a successful ending.
'Accept the pain and get ready for success!'
Please give me the pain so that I can be successful. I am not afraid.

Nobody can go back and change a bad beginning. But anybody can start now and create a successful ending.

"The greatest glory of living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time you fall."  - Nelson Mandela

If you miss an opportunity, don't fill the eyes with tears. It will hide another better opportunity in front of you.

You are unique.  You can think for yourself. I don't care if everybody's doing it. We're not everybody. 
I am NOT everybody.

If a problem can be solved, no need to worry about it. If a problem cannot be solved, what is the use of worrying?' I won't worry before it is time. I will walk into every battlefield with head held up high, a heart of courage, and steely determination to WIN, with the knowledge that I have prepared my best - so that I shall triumph with pride and die with great DIGNITY and HONOUR. I will never stop fighting to reach the top and BE THE BEST. I am second to none, and nothing walking this Earth shall hinder me from what I envision..'
I WILL BE; I MUST BE!! ALL THE BEST, MANDY..

"Changing the Face" can change nothing.

But "FACING THE CHANGE" can change everything.
 - I will not complain about what I do not get. I will work hard for it, even if it takes my whole life to get it, so God please help me to find peace within me.

 

 

The Final Day

Have you ever ask yourself the meaning of love? Do you know what are the differences between loving or liking someone..? Some might say that loving means to shower lots of kisses and hugs to their loved ones, some just want to get hold of someone, etc..If you ask me personally bout the differences between love and like, I'm sorry that I can't tell you guys too as I'm confused..

Let's put yourself in a situation where there are 3 people liking you, but you choose none..Instead you go for the other that's not even in his list..Don't you think this type of feeling hurt you very much? Well, to tell you guys the truth, I've been experiencing those feelings currently..Like? Love? Or none? I'm soooo confused..Somebody please help me...!! lolz..

I've been liking someone lately but the fact of having him as a boyfriend is a no-no as we're not prepared and well, I don't wanna hurt his feelings too..Hmm..it sounds selfish to say this, but I think I like him more than he likes me..It's just a one sided love..Sigh..so sad...This guy has been helping me all these years and that's the reason I fall for him..One might say that I'm doing this because he almost have everything in life and I'm there for the benefit, but no, that's absolutely ridiculous..I really like him for who he is, but now those feelings are getting deeper...What should I do, guys..? Go for it? But that guy can't decide himself..and I do not want to hurt his feelings..Neither do I want to hurt mine too..

The guy I'd mentioned earlier has a friend who's in the same university with him..He once liked her and she likes him too..Both of them like each other..However, their friend relationship is very unstable, like the Hot and Cold song from Katy Perry..The fact that he likes me and so do I is hurting me deeply-I'm starting to feel that I'm betraying his dear friend who wants to be with him..Jealousy is always there within us; I can't deny that I do feel hurt when he's close to her but I have no rights to say it out as they're friends...

The whole situation had worsened now..The girl that I've been trying so hard to be friends with her is now mad at me and she's depressed, while I'm lost between these two guys...Do you think I should avoid him? Should I let go of him? Will I hurt him if I do that? I've been repeatedly telling myself that he deserves a better girl, because I can't give him anything but sadness, and I can't be his ideal partner nor his good friend..

Honestly speaking, I did try to avoid him but it's always in vain after he messaged me..How should I say this..? Hmm...because I like him very much and he messages me, I become soft in heart and I surrendered.. I can't just let him go like that..I even cried for him..!! >.< Gosh...that hurts...

Usually a girl will be happy when someone she likes return her feelings, but that's not applied for me..I was happy at the beginning, but not now...I have hurt many people's feelings..I can't hurt this person anymore..

Maybe I should try avoiding him again..that's the only way to let him go..to have his freedom..

To the person concern: Dear, I'm sorry..I'm doing this not for myself, but I'm doing it for you and for everybody..Trust me, you'll be happier if you have your freedom without me..Just go and don't look back..You'll find someone you love, and I wish you all the best for your future undertakings..Take care, dear..

(I'll be going to school on Friday, it's up to you to decide..I can't do it for you, you can come if you want, dear..I will always welcome you, dear, as your best friend....)

Sincerely from,
Mandy Ong Siaw Harn

25th September - One Last Moment

Hi, I'm back..!! Well guys, guess what..? You might think that this is my first time blogging, but no, you got it wrong..Haha...Whoa!! I've been blogging since 2 years ago..
Hmm....so welcome back...
Now, to those who're new out there, I'm Siaw Harn, also known as Mandy for short..And this is how I look now..Yeah, from the old look (nerdy with spectacles and long hair) to the short hair and cute almond face.. >.< 

P/S : I may look perfect, but no, I'm not..Anyway, look at me, smiling all the time, and this makes you happy too..You guys should learn from me..hahaha... (honestly speaking, smiling requires energy- need to exercise the mouth..tiring...   =.=lll     )


So, what's the significance on the 25th of September? Well...hmm...guys, you can't believe it, but i had fun for the whole day..I was invited by my friend to his open house for raya and guess what..? Those who are invited felt the same too..lolz..The host gave us good services >.< hahaha.. Not to mention those delicious food noodles, rice, curry chicken...yummy....Too bad, I can't eat that much.. I always eat a lot at home, but not for yesterday...Sob, sob...Wanna know the reason? It's kind of lame tho...My ribbon belt tied around my waist was just too tight.. =.=llll I felt like I was wearing a corset back in the 1800s ....Sorry, Hazmi..I'll not do that again..Haha... (For your info guys, Hazmi is my one and only true friend that I can trust..Though I don't know whether I make a fool of myself by believing him, but I can say that you'll definitely not regret make friends with him..Irreplaceable..Oh ya, he's the host...Hahaha)

The twins, Kent and Sean, are my friends since lower secondary..Well, Kent is getting cooler now, while his twin is really different..? Lolz, no offence guys, but what I meant by different is that he's unique in his own way..Lam and Gan are my friends too, they're like brothers to me..I made new friends with Farahin and Sandra..Farahin is a pretty gal, while Sandra is really elegant..Hazmi, if you're reading this, just remember what I'd said earlier..Good luck, dude..

26th September will be Hazmi's 19th birthday and I gave him a Parker pen which is costly and a watch..Hope you like it, dude..Haha...

Last but not least, to all my dear friends out there who was there for the open house, I wanna thank you all for grouping together again after one and a half years..I can't deny that I'm really happy to see you guys enjoying and playing UNO cards, while I'm glued to the idiot box..Hahaha... XD
(Please note that this might be the last time I'll be seeing you guys again,as I'm busy preparing my finals -STPM and I've things to do after the finals.. So please do keep in touch..Take care, my dear friends..)

Gambatte!!
Sincerely from Mandy~