Time for a new challenge

To keep it simple and short, I would just want to pen down that...err...well, I will be no longer writing stuff on blogs..why? well, I am really sooooo lazy to update my wall and yeah, I am busy as well..Busy in studying for my Semester 2. >.<lll sorry everyone, but I need to focus on my studies now..See ya, tata~ ^^

Friends? or....

There are currently 2 guys that have entered my life and gave me something which I really treasure. One is from Japan, (Kyoto) whose looks remind me of a casanova but he has a beautiful and pure heart. The other is a guy who really cares for me and said that he likes me, and yet I am not sure whether to accept his feelings. Rejection is not a healthy thing for people, and I will only reject guys who are really annoying and not understanding. The word "cruel" does not refer to my policy in life, but yet some said I do. To be cruel means that by using someone tothe fullest and yet having no feelings for the opposite partner.

Back to the topic earlier, this Japanese guy (nickname - Suzuya) I met personally shared all his problems (partially, not all) to me and so do I too. I know it's hard to accept LDR, yet we like each other more than a friend relationship. I must say that it's more to the feelings of admiration rather than liking as a bf-gf thing. Yet, I seriously don't know what's happening to me as I trust him with all my life. Should I say that this is the first time..I opened my heart to a guy? As far as I know, I have never been opening my heart to anyone before and also to myself. This proves that my dear Japanese friend is really an understanding guy..You might think that it's really hard to believe that this type of people exist, but he somehow managed to console me when I am under depression. I remember vividly that he told me to love myself more so that I can love others as well. I have never thought about it until he gave me a big hit that he was actually telling the right thing..!! All this while I was wondering why my life is so miserable with so much problems that have been burdening me daily. Since young, I have been telling myself that I will never ever trust anybody (as I had a very bad experience that I'd faced) and even if I do trust, I will put my trust and love more on to other people than myself. It's kind of silly, don't you think? LOL




Next is this guy known as Aaron. I've just met him last 2 days and he treated me well without jumping into conclusions. I dont really know much about him, but he did tell his background to me. Actually, it's more like a fairytale story..I was just his customer while he's the person in charge of choosing my spectacles and sunglasses. So should I say that it's like a supervisor-customer relationship? nah, I dont think so..But we are getting closer day by day. He eventually asked me out for dinner and we ate at Vivo. I was about to pay my meal using my debit card but he stopped me by handing out RM 50 to the cashier. Sigh....sorry, Aaron~ I owed you something now..And yeah!! Why on earth did I blush so much like a tomato when I was eating with him? Gosh!! I knew that I kept on smiling as I cant talk much in front of guys (because I am shy)...But it lasted for almost 3 hours from 7 pm till 10 pm..Even the promoters were curious why my face was really red..It's so embarrassing!! But the real truth is..I am really happy..I just cant show to anyone..Haha www

So...that's all for now...I know it's kind of boring to read these but those above are my real feelings. Never in my life have the time to write a diary on my life as I always keep things to myself..haha xD That's all for now~ Ja mattane!

Friends! ^^)

Hi there..It has been so long (like months) for not updating my blog~ Reason? Simple..I do not have the time to update it even.. [ in other words, I am lazy =.=lll ]

So..you must be wondering what am I doing now? Well, I am pursuing my degree now..Doing a double major course in university, bla bla..Dont ask me where and when..(if you want to, ask me personally) haha xD

Eventually, I found what's the real meaning of happiness and love. I know it's kind of complicating, but, well..my real happiness within me evolved when I step into university. New friends, relationships, ideas and even secrets we share together. There are three beautiful, sweet friends who change my life completely (for the better) and they are Nisha Kaur, Yi Hong and Bee Suan. Thank you, my dear friends!! We always share our jokes together (and always being crazy, especially me, Nisha and Yi Hong). It may sound boring to you all, but I just wanna say that there are some friends who can lead you to the correct path and direction. Previously, I was being naive and did not know the real meaning of love. Indeed, it's not love at all - just lust, the worst hater of all..Thanks to my friends, I can control myself and think of the positive~

And that's the reason why I feel that I really need to thank my university friends. I do not mind spending time to help them in everything (in their studies, personal problems, etc). One can't just say the word "thank you" easily..It's not that simple as what you think. It's something that cannot be trade off, cannot be paid, which is more like a treasure but it's in your heart. There's this guy who let me see the importance of knowledge and the real meaning of life, and not to simply judge a person's character. In other words, he made me learn a lesson of not to simply jump into conclusion and watch my words! Wow, he is indeed a good guy! Thanks...err my friend (dont want to write down his name here) xD

Studies? hmm..not bad..I am doing fine, but not good..Should polish up my subjects. Lectures are really nice and friendly. They are helpful..although some are really moody and expect students to self study, I must say that they are still our lecturer..Especially my accounting lecturer..She may look fierce and terrible, but if you really approach her for help, she will be very friendly to you. That's her personality~ I feel quite sorry for her..she is leaving us and we will have another lecturer for accounting. Others may hate her, but not me. I am sorry to say this, but she is really nice to me although she hit my notebook on the table (by accident). xD Miss Tong, thank you for teaching me accounts~

Last but not least, I want to say...that..I got to go now? haha xDD Well, this is not the end of it..I will continue writing in my blog, but not often .. ^^) Ja, mattane! see ya~